The non-league footballer who abused Harry Arter over the death of his stillborn child has claimed Arsenal's performance at Bournemouth drove him to tweeting the midfielder.
Alfie Barker was sacked by Hitchin after making vile comments to the Republic of Ireland international midfielder.
His comments were widely criticised with Barker later deleting the tweets and apologising.
The 18-year-old, who suffers from ADHD and autism, wants to meet Arter to apologise for his actions.
"I was watching Arsenal at home last night and I was hyper. At 3-0 down they weren't playing well and I was annoyed," he told The Comet.
"I'd had a couple of beers and was frustrated at the way the team was playing and I just lashed out. I have no idea why I focused on Harry Arter and his family and I am so, so sorry for what I have done.
"It was a moment of madness.
"I have no social skills. I have no filter between my mouth and my brain. I work every day and I have spent the whole day trying to understand why I did what I did."
Barker added: "I'm not a horrible person. My aunt Stacey Hunt has actually had two miscarriages in the last five years, and I am distraught about upsetting her as well as my family – and of course Harry Arter and his family.
"I would like to meet Harry Arter face to face to apologise for my inexplicable actions. I cannot justify in any way, shape or form what I did but I would like to say sorry.
"I would like to write a letter to Harry saying sorry too. I feel like the worst person in the world today."