Freddy Tylicki said it is "hard to talk about the future" as the jockey tries to come to terms with being paralysed from the waist down following a fall which he says he can remember "every little detail" of.
The 30-year-old suffered a T7 paralysis after a horrific fall during a race at Kempton last month.
Tylicki spent 15 days in intensive care and has given his first interview since his accident as he prepares to start his rehabilitation at the London Spinal Injury Centre.
He told The Sun: "I'm dealing with it day in and day out. I have good days and I have bad days. At the moment I have more bad days than good ones,
"But I'm going to be moved to rehab in the next couple of weeks and I'm looking forward to that, as it will be the next chapter in life.
"I've been in this hospital bed over five weeks and I have to say the doctors and nurses could not have been better - but it's been very intense. Going to rehab is something I'm really looking forward to as they are fully specialised and focused on patients like myself."
He added: "Who knows what will happen as far as possibly allowing me to walk again.
"It's hard to talk about the future. Even harder for me as I've never experienced anything like this. The doctors have been very realistic, though."
Tylicki said he was aware soon after his fall that had sustained a serious injury.
"I remember everything. I remember every little detail about the fall." he added.
"But I don't remember being taken to hospital as the boys tell me I was knocked out. I just woke up in intensive care.
"From very early on I knew there was a big problem. The doctors talked to me very quickly and I obviously had feelings in my upper body but none in my lower. I put two and two together very quickly.
"I also had eight broken ribs on my left and 10 on my right, although I couldn't feel that in intensive care because of all the painkillers."