In many ways, it's been a difficult few months for Conor McGregor.
The Irishman suffered the first defeat of his UFC career, botched the opportunity to gain revenge and, something he's rarely spoken about, sat cageside during the fight that ended Joao Carvalho's life.
Maybe the recent death of Joao Carvalho in Ireland has led to this McGregor "retirement" situation?
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"I had fucking journalists knocking down my mother's door, you know what I mean?" McGregor told ESPN. "That's not what I signed up to do - have people knocking on my mother's door, talking about a kid dying. It's not nice to see a kid die like that. It does something to you. And there's been show after show cancelled in Ireland since that. It's fucked up to be a part of it, and I didn't want to bring it back up and put it more on a public scale.
"After all that, I did not want to be put in front of a camera and made to dance. I just wasn't feeling it."
It's an analogy McGregor has used before - being "made to dance" - but speaking to ESPN, he insisted his relationship with UFC and Dana White was good, that there was no bad blood following the commotion of last month when he retired, and then unretired, and then got dropped from UFC 200.
That stunt, which McGregor didn't expect to have such an impact and claimed started as a bit of "fun", isn't the only reason the Notorious has been in the news over recent weeks. There's also been a lot of talk about a fight against Floyd Mayweather - something his current contract wouldn't allow him to partake in.
Asked about this, and whether he's committed to the UFC, is his response telling? He said: "I'm committed to the fight game, I enjoy competition. I enjoy challenges. If a challenge is in front of me and it appeals to me, I will go ahead and conquer it."