Robin Williams was 'drowning in his symptoms' before his death


Robin Williams' widow has told how her husband was "drowning in his symptoms" before he committed suicide without knowing what was wrong with him.

The Oscar-winning star took his own life in 2014, aged 63, having suffered from the little-known but deadly Lewy body disease, which Susan Schneider described as a "terrorist within his brain".

In an essay published in the Neurology journal, she said that her husband's final words to her, "Goodnight, my love", "still echo through my heart".

Robin Williams and Susan Schneider

She said his "larger than life spirit" was crushed by "skyrocketing" fear and anxiety, a "continuous" tremor in his left hand, a "shuffling gait", "terrible insomnia" and a "loss of basic reasoning" and memory.

While filming Night At The Museum 3 "Robin was having trouble remembering even one line for his scenes, while just three years prior he had played in a full five-month season of the Broadway production Bengal Tiger At The Baghdad Zoo, often doing two shows a day with hundreds of lines - and not one mistake," she wrote.

"This loss of memory and inability to control his anxiety was devastating to him."

Doctors only discovered that the Mrs Doubtfire star had been suffering from Lewy body disease after he died.

"How I wish he could have known why he was struggling, that it was not a weakness in his heart, spirit, or character," she said.

She described how the symptoms took grip, and doctors diagnosed her husband with Parkinson's disease.

Robin Williams

"He called several times. He was very concerned with insecurities he was having about himself and interactions with others. We went over every detail. The fears were unfounded and I could not convince him otherwise," she wrote.

She said that the Juilliard-trained actor was keeping the true depth of his symptoms, including the fact that he may have been hallucinating, from her.

In the essay, entitled The Terrorist Inside My Husband's Brain, Schneider wrote that her husband's last words to her were said as the couple went to bed, as doctors told them to sleep apart to help with their combined tiredness.

"When we retired for sleep, in our customary way, my husband said to me 'Goodnight, my love,' and waited for my familiar reply: 'Goodnight, my love."

"His words still echo through my heart today.

"Monday, August 11, Robin was gone."

Schneider, who is campaigning to raise awareness of the disease, added: "It is my belief that when healing comes out of Robin's experience, he will not have battled and died in vain."